learn to stand up where you've fallen

how far can you get?
how serious can you be?
when you have had it in your hands, are you willing to let it go?

'cause you were giving me a chance but i threw it away.
you were willing to love me but i was my skeptic self
i did not want to have to trust you or your words
i wanted to be left alone
i did not believe that it could happen, that it was possible.

how gullible can i be in the face of a passing time
why did i have to lean on my fears and not on my saving grace
where am i going, can you please tell me?

because life gave me an opportunity yet i ignored it
i have been waiting to learn to love
but at first glance, i shied away from it
your intentions were clear as day
i suspected you were something gray.

now i ask myself, where are you?
now my life is back
if i could catch you once again, will you still love me?

i am a cynic in my own right
but romance is in your breast so tight
i am cold-hearted and you are warm
i wanna feel you in my arms
are you real? will you stay?
are you serious or is this mere wordplay?

i have spent my sleeping hours thinking of you
i reserved my waking moments dreaming of you
i fantasized that things would come true
i never knew i was meant to be blue
i was starting to fall
i am lucky something caught me before i stumbled
i might not have fallen
but my mind wanders as if i have been loosened

nothing to think of, nothing to fear
no dreams to chase, no one to speak
no message, no love
i live to be unloved, forgotten
in the course of time, i am rotten.

learn to love when it comes
know it by its silver mane
sheath it, crown it
tie it and hold it
never let it go
because i, forever, will never know.