so i opened my friendster today and this is what i found.....
The Bottom Line
Being lucky in love rearranges things in your life, right down to the details.
In Detail
You like to keep things the same as much as you possibly can. At the moment, however, that's just about impossible, especially when it comes to either work or joint financial ventures. Before you get upset about it and lay into whomever you think is responsible for trying to break up your day, give the change a chance. That way, if the end result is better than it would have been without any changes, there won't be any need for apologies.
how very timely and odd.
somehow it sums up most of what has been happening to me these past few weeks.
it started a few months back. i can't exactly remember the exact date because i did not pay attention at the time but i believe that it happened somewhere between august and September. there is this friend of mine, an acquaintance you might say, but a friend in my opinion just the same. he had been telling for the last month that he was going away for work. and so he did. to make it short, he did leave the city but he gave me one surprise. something that really surprised me despite its being common. he gave my number to his brother.
i did not know then that he did that. i was surprised one day to find a message from someone i did not know.
yes, he did gave my number to his brother. this brother of his was new at the city at the time and he wanted me to befriend his brother so he won't feel so alone. at the time I thought, what? he gave my number to his brother?! but then i calmed myself and told myself it was alright. i don't know this brother of his and anyway, it's not as if something's going to happen. so i let flow its course.
how very wrong of me to think that it was nothing and soon he would tire of talking to a faceless person. For he did not.
sometime after that, his brother was leading the course over to an entirely different direction. something above what we had. and i was shocked and angry. i've got to say i was angry.
somehow, those reading this would find it a very common thing to happen these days. still, there is the fact that i do not have unknown people texting me, sending me messages. i just let it happen out of consideration for the friendship I had with his brother.
And I was angry because I do not like people who are unknown to me courting me and telling me flowery words. because i believed then that it was most likely a joke and it is not right to play with someone else's feelings. I was so angry at him that I did not talk to him again.
But despite all that, I still kept on sending him quotes as a member of my phonebook and nothing else. One day, he sent me a message and told me "pag Xure oi".
during that time, I was so immersed in my studies that I forgot I got angry at him. well, it stopped me on my tracks. it made me think of my actions and somehow, I felt guilty for something i do not know.
weeks after that, we went on an outing trip somewhere. friends and acquaintancesof mine, including I, met on a place we all know. then there is this group of friends who are younger than I am who kept on talking about this faceless textmate of mine. I just listened and time after time, I would find myself asking wuestions about him. it turns out that it was his brithday the sunday before. and it also turned out that I had picked a fight with him on that day.
hmmmm.... so much for knowing.
so right there, I apologized to him and wished him a belated happy birthday. he did not reply to my message and i just put into my mind that it was my fault anyway. so there we went to this outing. Later that afternoon, when it was already beginning to get dark, we headed for home. the vehicle we rode on turned out to be owned by his employer. i forgot about it at the time. then, i found myself later outside the house of his employer and I saw him. it was the forst time i ever saw him. i recognized him because of the jersey he wore which had thier family name on it and because he looked like a younger and paler version of his brother.
I've got to say Iw as elated to have seen him not because he is handsome but because i've already seen him and he haven't seen me yet. it was this mischievous side of me who was egging me to send him a message about it. So I did. I thought at the time, why not have fun, right?
but he did not reply and i forgot about it. again.
the sunday after that, we were at church for an activity and there he was passing by me. I just felt I had to confirm about what I felt knew. I asked my friend who was beside me who he was and she replied positively. what happened next I knew nothing about.
this mischievous friend of mine suddenly called him and introduced us. i was so surprised that she did that and i found myself denying her introductions. i was looking at him and he was looking quite confused with us. so i introduced myself so he would walk away because I was so mortified.
the next morning, at two a.m, he sent me a message saying that he was going home. i got shocked and texted him right away as soon as I opened my eyes and found that message. he replied to it and he was already on the way home. i don't know what happened but i felt like i did not want him to go.
we texted the whole day and i found out that he was serious about his proposition. i did not know quite what to say. i am so unsure of myself and that horoscope is so alike with what my cousin told me. she told me to give myself a chance and to stop worrying.
well, i've decided to give it a try.
good luck to me.
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