waiting for snow by april gonzaga

i have read this pocketbook before but i forgot about it. it’s a very good story. i very much like it because though the plot has a familiarity to me, still the story manages to solicit a positive reaction and a flow of emotions that so few a book could elicit from me.

it’s about second chances, second lives, well-developed characters that you just find yourself reading on and on. there’s poetry in it and it’s good because it’s in Filipino which means that it could elicit a far deeper emotion and stir a different kind of reaction and would mean a lot more than a foreign novel would.

the parts of a poetry that one of the characters supposedly made which is present at the beginning of every chapter is so rich and captivating. who would have known that ivy luna would fall for the man she did not like being with? who would have known that the man she was keeping in her heart was the same man that she always turned away? and above all, who would have known that onse diaz’s love for ivy was so great that it managed to break through the barriers of time and place? and best of all, the song highlighted in the story id just too meaningful. i wonder where that came from, really.

hopefully...

two weeks before the end of the first semester this year. hopefully, i'll be able to pass my courses with flying colors.

hopefully i'll be able to keep abreast of the time and events that are happening around me.

i also hope that i'll be more successful this year than the last.

good wishes and positive outlook elicits positive outcomes.

won't that be great?!

hmmm...starting to think so, too.

feeling so blessed...

things sure are coming out all right. Finally, things are going the way they should go.blessings are pouring from every side and i feel not lucky but blessed this time.

what a busy summer!

As far as I could remember, this is the busiest summer I ever had. Had to attend a lot of debuts, parties. Also had to return to school for many things. Met with friends downtown. Talked a lot of things together. Went to my abuela's house for over a week vacation. Made myself busy somewhere. Overnight in a friend's house after the debut. Talked till morning, debated actually on some topics. Stargazing by the seashore , shared stories till morning, counted shooting stars till four in the morning, slept on the sand without nothing under, not even a piece of cloth. Shared a room with a boy I met only a few hours ago who was actually my friend's friend but still it was the first. Slept near the sea for the first time. Mostly slept at dawnbreak. Made myself scace yet useful at home whenever I was home. Helped out too when I don't feel tired or lazy. Had a lot of engagements. Spent a lot of money too. What a waste! But anyway, I only did it this summer. It's the first time. Had to have my first in something else too. I went to a faraway place for the first time without my mom. It was to attend my friend's debut. We slept there. I did not even ask permission from my mom first. Actually, it was weird, joyful, crazy and all whatever! But I enjoyed it just the same. I learned a lot too. Thought I'd leave that out, huh? No. I haven't forgotten. It was a major learning experience.That's why it was a lot of fun!

when stars go out each night

Such fun looking at the stars at night. They glow and glisten in the blackness of the night sky. They hang up there looking at all of us.

Sometimes, when I do my own stargazing, I remember the nursery song ringing in my ears. 'How I wonder what you are', enters my mind for the most briefest of moments.

It often crosses my mind what my natural science teacher told us in one of her lectures. 'Some stars are already hundred years dead--- even thousands or millions, for all we know, but there light still reaches us. It always amazed me that they can do that when they're already dead.

I look up at those stars at night, wondering how many among them are already dead but still manages to send their light to us so the sky won't be so dark and scary to look at at night. And I wonder, if ever I can do it, too. Will I be able to send m loved ones my love when I am a quarter of a century six feet under?

It goes to show that stars really belong up in the heavens.

Truly, all's well that ends well....

I started the day walking to school with a total of thirty minutes from home on an empty stomach, and having to listen to a four hour lecture while feeling a little dizzy and sleepy. Then, I had to start a thirty minute walk back home under the noon sun. Well, the day did not really start that good. In addition to that count of my problems for the day, I did not really understand the lectures given to us that day. But it was just half the day. The other half ended out much better than the first half of the day. Well, it did not really start out that good but it was okay. I ran into a boy who was bringing out a box of bottles which very nearly dropped to the ground. But, as I was nearing the campus I met a lot of old friends and faces. Well, can't describe here what we've been doing except this. We've been laughing a lot as the day ended due to too much hilarious events that happened. It was so fun, after all. Well, just have to say the day might not have started out well, but it ended so well. Truly, all's well that ends well.

When they speak in a foreign tongue...

There are times when we find ourselves in perfectly perplexing situations where our minds are blank and we do not understand what's happening around us. We have this time when our mind just won't work at all. It just won't process the information it is supposed to be taking care of. And so sometimes we just find ourselves wondering whether they are speaking in a foreign language it just sound to ridiculous for us to understand.

I am still a student in a university where education is given a higher premium than anything else. It is often inferred and assumed by all that all students in this university have higher IQ's and thus, it is a common thought that we are among the best students since we come from a prestigious and one of the best universities in the country.

It is not really a ridiculous thought. Yet, sometimes it is irritating when people just make these inferences of whatever they think we're like. Often, they seem to conclude that students in this university are akin to walking dictionaries and calculators with minds that of a high processing computer where information is easily sorted out and digested. It's like the instructor says this and that and boom! you are expected to understand whatever they're talking of.

Are we such things? Definitely not. Because even the most powerful computer experiences glitches and information overload and all. It is so depressing and troubling that many people expects us to be good in all we do. That whatever we do must be of the highest quality.

I am not against the thought that our work must be that best, that we must have these what they call "better abilities" for us to have entered this institution. Yet, it is wrong to assume that we just can understand whatever they say and be able to digest it fully in just a snap of the fingers. That we must be the best all the time where no failures are expected, is just so presumptuous on their part. This is just so obscene.

I often find myself in such situation especially on courses that we have just been acquainted with. For example, we are studying this course where the lessons are the fundamentals of all mathematical lessons. Where we have to study so many different theorems, corollaries, axioms, lemmas and such. I do not find it boring but the way it is presented to us is so-so.

The instructor tells you this moment that you do not have to really understand this theorems, you just have to accept them as true. Yet, minutes later, he tells you that for the next theorem to be true, you must be able to prove that it is indeed true. How then does one expect that we understand what he's saying when he had just told us to just"accept" it as it is without really explaining what it is?Isn't it completely perplexing? It's like huh? What are you saying? Are you speaking in a completely different tongue? My mind is going blank. It just can't process the said information without first understanding what preceded it?

Whatever. It seems to be just the way things are these days. They tell you this and they just expect you to completely understand them by heart the next second. Well, yeah right. Whatever you say. It must be information overload and all. My system must have had a glitch because it doesn't seem to perform the operations that we are assumed to be performing that very minute. Sometimes, I just wanna shut down and lay to rest all this insanities.

Still have the same opinion? I bet not. After all, we are just students doing our best to understand it all not some excellent information processor that don't have setbacks of our own.

Better get some sleep. My processor might just process the information while I'm asleep. It just might be in my dreams tonight. So help me. I hope it won't be another nightmare. I hope it heals itself tonight.

A bLeSsinG oF rAiN

Sometimes, we do not want to let the rain in our lives. We view it as something that perplexes us and sometimes changes our lives dramatically or at times, tragically. We mostly associate it with troubles, problems, events that we perceive as undesirable.

Sometimes, it feels like the Heaven had shut it's gate on you, letting rain fall in torrents, drowning you silently. At times, you feel like the world turned its back on you, only hell has opened its doors for you. When Night comes, darkness fills all of your senses making you feel empty, isolated and cursed by all.

When you fall asleep, you dream of Nightmare with its hollow, ghostly mask glowing in the darkness of your subconscious. Collaborating with Satan to tempt you to do the things that are not right.Willing you, with the practicality your mind has acquired, to take the road everybody has chosen.

In the far distances of your mind, you watch as Hades begins to laugh at your foolishness for taking Satan's offer. For the road that most have picked, is the road where you begin to realize that it is surrounded by walls of iniquity and malice. Wide the road is at the start, yet as you journey further, you find that it crooked and narrow.Its walls suppress you till you give in, its road grows thorns till you find yourself bleeding.

Hell scorched the walls so that you burn in furious madness while Satan let Cloud cry its mournful song as it grieves for your damned soul. As you walk further, you find yourself at the edge of a cliff, hanging on a small precipice. The ground yields to the collaborators request, as it breaks at your feet willing you to fall in the darkest abyss where many have fallen.

You scream at the top of your lungs till you have no voice left. You try to look around, but all you ever see is darkness like the soul that you have. You can not even see a single thing. Not even the tip of your fingers.

At that moment, Cloud has completed its idyll and you feel the rain falling from Cloud's heart. Drenching, soaking you till you feel that the Earth has cursed you too for letting you drown. You find yourself cursing Earth and Cloud and also Heaven for the events Fate had dropped into your lap. You view them as your enemies, just watching your every step as you fall into the darkness you yourself have chosen. At that, you hear Hades and Satan laugh and scorn you as Night and Nightmare do their tricks on your mind.

Slowly, Night and Nightmare stopped their antics at the sudden burst of Light into the pit where you have fallen. Hades and Satan cried out for they were now exposed and Light has finally made its self known to you. Heaven beamed at you as Fate began a new weave for you-- colorful and bright. Cloud now sang a new song filling your heart with joy while Heaven renewed your troubled spirit with a new one to help you in darker days.

You stand there astounded, amazed at all the good things before you. You asked them all who helped you. And they replied with all eagerness and gladness. It was Rain from the heart of Cloud who so wanted to help you find your light. He sensed your despair and was troubled at the darkness that filled you. He asked Cloud to let him out. He wanted to pour his tears on you so that you will be cleansed.

To let him out would bring Light back into the sky where it belonged and only then will you see that Heaven has not abandoned you. Heaven only bade his time so you will see the outpour of blessings awaiting you once you have known the way.

Rain is not a curse. It is a blessing. A sign of all the good things to come. It heals the sky so it would return to its former glory-- so bright and bringing hope to those who have none. Rain cleanses the Earth to get rid of all the wastes clogging its lines so that the ground may once more yield its plethora of blessings upon us. It makes the trees greener and all plants lush. It falls down in a heavy downpour to remind us of the the way things once were.

quotations of my own1

Beautiful sunset. Has the title Angels Fall To Flames. A real inspiration for poets, writers and songwriters.

Just a few quotations of my own. Some are spur of the moment whenever I feel sentimental. Some are just few of the wonders that play in my mind which I have successfully written down.


Love is full of emotion,

you experience a wonderful feeling,

Like a trip through the ocean or a voyage through our living.

One day a wave told me:

If your love is true,

not even the strongest sea would separate you two.

Falling in love is drowning in your deepest thoughts.

Nothing else matters,

except your wonderful love.

-----from doc_steve (whoever he is).

Lend me your hand and hold me,

fight and don't give in,

because i am coming to hold you forever......

virgianearthsnownymp h

ShiLralQ

There might be some days when you feel like the whole world has turned you down.

Like it just don't care for you at all.

But you forgot one thing: faith.

This is the one thing that you can never do without.

This is everybody's lifeline when everything in this world is upside down and when you feel that you just can't take one more step to reach your finish line.

Sometimes it would feel like evryone is so caught up with some thing to do and all you could do is watch them make their lives just whatever they want it to be.

Just look closer.I am here with you.

Ready to help you and be with you when everyone is so damn busy with their own lives to take a look at someone else and stay with them even just for a while.

You can count on me. I can be with you.

-----sevenstarredladyinblue

When will people learn to love without looking at their imperfections? When will they wake up and find out that the one they loved has already gone?

For a single imperfection love has been wasted, for one mistake a year of tears has been paid for..."

-------Angel Lockheart

The VirgianEarthSnowNymph

"Soon people will meet each other,befriend each other,love one another,then they just fall apart one day...how many times do we have to love, just to see ourselves on the floor?

How many times do we have to stand up for a thing that doesn't serve us anything but tears?"

----Angel Lockheart

ShilRalq
"when you have made such a big but risky decision, when you have sacrificed something for the sake of someone, how then will you justify the decision you made when it cost somebody his life?"

-------Angel Lockheart

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